It's so hard to say goodbye to someone so precious in your life...one that helped you get through the tough times of parents separating and all the ups and downs of life. At home there is someone waiting there for you, with those puppy-eyes asking for a piece of your teriyaki chicken or to just get attention. I don't know how many times it will repeat in my mind of when I watched her slowly close her eyes after being given a shot to put her to sleep. I will cry and cry because she is so precious to me. And yet I won't realize how much until she's gone. She is gone now to a place where she will no longer suffer...where she can sleep in a world for eternity. To never see the chaos of the world...to be wrapped within a cocoon of protection in the clouds.
There will no longer be the annoying sound of her barking at me to receive mom's love. No more play buddy to make me laugh whenever she did a funny trick to keep a smile on everyone's faces. No more snoring which will match mom's snoring in turn. No more prancing down the hall like mom's shadow because she was like a shadow with her tail wagging and tongue hanging out from her toothless mouth. No more...nothing. It has all disappeared within the blink of an eye. It all seems like a dream when I think about the first day we saw her at the pound. She was lost, abandoned, and above all neglected of a family to protect her with love.
If there is one thing that will make me cry, it will be all the memories; no matter how vague they may be or how short of a time she was there for me...she has finally walked that stairway to heaven. She is in a safe haven now, and yet down here the haven we created for her will always have an empty void.
Always there in memory and in dreams. Our little Kiko who pulled through with so much suffering yet she was strong through everything. Always a fighter till the end.
I love you.